This post is probably going to sound pretty cheesy but I couldn't help but write about how great my life is! Now, I'm not trying to brag. I'm sure every one at one time or another allowed discouragement to take over and dampen their happiness or enthusiasm. . I have definitely done that more than once! When deciding whether or not to buy something, Zach and I always ask each other, is it a want or a need? Most of the time it's a want. Being a poor married couple while Zach's in school makes it easy for me to get caught up in fantasizing the days when we can go to the "expensive theater" or shop at a "real grocery store" because Wal-Mart is NOT my ideal place to buy food.
When all of these thoughts come up it makes it harder for me to be happy in the conditions we're in and I end up feeling discouraged and sorry for myself and all the things I wish I had. ( I know you are all thinking how materialistic I am) SO.. I have started using the "Is it a want or a need?" with life in general. And when it really comes down to it, all I really need is my family, the church, the temple, food, and a roof over my head (maybe a car too.). Suddenly I'm SOOO happy and I have a GREAT life! I really do! It couldn't be better! I was thinking to myself today that if Zach flunked out of nursing school and we had to live the rest of our lives with him as a LPN (licensed practical nurse) and live in this apartment I would be happy, we could totally do it! I might not have as many children as I want but it would work.
Anyway, I hope you don't think something is wrong because I wrote about being happy. I wrote this post because right now Zach is working an 18 hour shift at the hospital and I thought it was funny how grateful I could feel while my husband has to work that long! I absolutely LOVE being a mom and I'm so so grateful that it's important enough to my husband that I am able to be home with our son. Even if it means we barely get by sometimes. It's so worth it. So thank you to my wonderful husband for being so ambitious while working and attending school full time. I think we both agree that life couldn't be better.
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Caitlin - I actually think it is really good to write stuff like this down so when you do have a bad day feeling sorry for yourself you can read it and remember that things aren't bad. Anyway - I can't wait to see you guys in a few weeks!
Beautiful post sister. That picture of Zach and Jonah actually made me ALMOST choke up.
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